Just Because

Just because I'm hurting doesn't mean I'm hurt
Just because I cry doesn't mean I'm sad
Just because I love him doesn't mean I don't hate him
Just because he avoids me doesn't mean he hates me
Just because I wrote this doesn't mean I want him to read it
Just because you read this doesn't mean you will ever understand it

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What I want

I want Collin 2 love me. I want him 2 read this, but i dont. I want 2 know everything about him. I want him 2 be able to tell me anything, even if it means telling me he hates me. I want him to stay away from Jasmine, who ill get 2 later. I want all of my problems with him to disappear and go to hell and burn forever. I want a lot of things, more than I can write, but I dont want to forget him. Never. Never in a million years.

Issues....

I hate Collin and Jasmine and Maddie, and Taylor C, and Mary Elizabeth, and Mrs. Bailey, and my teachers, and everyone else who makes me mad.

This is what i think sometimes, but I am not suicidal.

Windows

Life is like windows
It can be shattered
And most of the time fixed
You can stare out them
To escape into the heavens of daydream
Where I am so often
Thinking about everything that has shattered
In my weary life
Sometimes they are unbreakable
Thinking they are imortal
But they are not
Never will they be
They may can stand the most tragic moments
Filled with pain and agony
Without crying a single tear
But one day someone
Or something
Will cross the line
And shatter their life
Into millions of pieces
Just...like...that
But nothing is unfixable
If you only try praying
So remember
Life is fragile
Handle with prayer

Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson)

He is so HOT!! I would marry him if I could, but hes meant for Kristen Stewart(Bella Swan)!!! I love he books. If she wrote 1000, I would definatley read them all.

This is my favorite picture on my computer. It says a lot.

Poetry

Nothing shall ever in this lifetime take me away from you
For you are evrything that a lonely heart could desire
I know it is wrong to love you
You tell me you love me
Then drag me to the ground
Like a rose being trampled by a beast from a world below
As I gaze into your eyes
Somewhere in the dark heart lurking deep beneath your flesh
I know you love me
But as time passes we become lost in thoughts that suffocate us
Until there is nothing left to do but give up
All we built up and watched burn
I know as long as you are happy
I will be happy
Resitance controls me but I long for forever with you
I know you may never love me again
But with or without me
You will always have me
Nothing will stop me from loving you